I JUST WANT TO SAY 

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SCREW EVERYTHING !!

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Why people now say I LOVE YOU to everyone. Do they really mean it ? 

Do they ?? if no , why they say it to everyone that they know even though they have only just met?

if yes , why they don't show it ? even just a little ?

Can i believe them who say that words to me ?

i just can see some . 

If you can't fucking Love , Don't fucking hate.

IS IT FUCKING RIGHT ?

RIGHT IS KIND of WRONG.

and that is so true !

what am i going to do?? everything seems so wrong and hurtful ,

not everything but i told you everything is shit .

whatta teen -,-

i never understand my own feelings , i never understand my fucking own problems.

never stop thinking ,

mad because of nothing , cry because of nothing . feeling so afraid of everything.

and what is nothing ?

i told you that to fake a smile and tell the truth . but kill me, i even can't do that. 

what can i do is just put everything on my own room in my head . i can't tell .

maybe i just can write it on . 

Okay enough, imma unstable teen . that's the point .

i just wanna say .. You better fake a smile when you meet me , then you tell me the truth . Rather you don't tell me anything and there is no truth. you just broke me 

Hollah

Hollahh !!i wanna tell ya all .
I've been super producitve lately :D

and i am so damn happy.

I spent my holiday with Sherleen and amelia.
i can't believe that i'm going to school tomorrow.

Amelia and I just made an online shop . we've been so confused about the site name .
And finally we  found 'eatsoda'

-------> eatsoda.blogspot.com

i spent my last couple day with amel discussing about yeearbook and our little online shop and we made a video . 

GAH !! EVERYTHING WAS FUN , .

until i found myself doing mathshit , drawing sincostan's Graphic .

seeeezzz..SCREW HOMEWORK !!

who ?

i watched this video at 3 a.m , Tuesday morning..
and i love him so much,,,
i feel like finding my God.
Who i believe in thou..
but everytime i watch this video..
i feel God is Here,,
i try to read the lyrics and my tears just falling .
what's wrong with me . i don't even understand
but why , i feel fear of thinking this way.

''Maybe there’s a God above
But all I’ve ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
It’s not a cry you can hear at night
It’s not somebody who has seen the light
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah''

-halelujah-

Straitjacket feeling

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell but
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be,
That face is staring holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
Off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me,

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away
There'll be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
grip falls away

Yesterday was hell, but
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me,

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you


-The All American Rejects-

Lucid Dream

Lately

feeling so weak , hope everyting's gonna be okay .
hope these problems , shits will warn me how hard is life gonna be..

I HOPE EVERYTHING's GONNA BE OKAY .
GOD HELP MEEEE :'(